Random Stars

I wonder at how many writers experience being presented with a blank page and a blinking cursor without knowing what to type. JK Rowling experienced that. No doubt others have. And now I do. Not because I need to write something to get paid, but because I just have this compelling want to blog. :P

Random Thoughts (Stars), anyone?

 I realized that there are a lot of things to be thankful for. Of course not because of Thanksgiving weekend, but because my family's all healthy and safe. (Look, I know it's boring but this is important to me :)

We watched Live AIDS Silver last night and it was so hilarious! Buttercup/Scarlett was unforgettable (Isang Pinggang Pancit!). Don't Lie to Me production numbers were just like the real thing. And a mini Oblation Run happened (Would you look at that -- my first oblation run and I was so shocked I couldn't take it all in).

I really should go Christmas shopping soon -- before the malls fill up with people and the traffic becomes unbearable. Toooot -- Too late! Maybe shopping for next year?

Talking about Christmas, my spirits are lifted every time I think that Christmas is near. It's the most popular holiday and is also my most favorite. :) Christmas songs, choral singing, red cups, wrapping presents, midnight masses, parols and the cold weather -- I love everything about Christmas!

Our Ilocos trip is also drawing nearer. Excited much? I am! I hope it's lovelier than my last Ilocos trip. :)

Eng'g Week starts in a little over a week! I'm also very excited about it. Cursor Sexy!!! :) I'm obligated to watch Awitan '08. I'm saying that because there should be no excuses! This only comes once a year. The theme this year is Pinoy Dramas, which almost automatically means old Tagalog love songs. This is going to be so dreammmmy. :)

Lastly, I'm really looking for a part-time writing job. So if there's anyone who can help me out, just let me know. :)


So I guess it's back to work tomorrow -- back to the normal routine. Despite that, I still have a lot of things to look forward to -- even more stars to think and write about. :)

Superhero Stuff

During the past 2 weeks, I've been in and out of the hospital, visiting Lolo who was confined there. Lolo is now here with us at home, but all the times I've been to the hospital made me marvel at the superhero stuff that health care personnel do in their jobs. They actually save lives.

And what do I do in my job? I sit in front of the computer all day. Well, if you look at the bigger picture, I ensure that our client's business is fully supported by the system. If you take a look at the even bigger picture, I help make our client become a multi-million dollar company, if it still isn't.

Say, if I ask you to weigh which is more important - a human life or a multi-million dollar company - which would you choose? The choice is so obvious! I'm not trying to say that my job sucks because it isn't the most important job in the planet. What I'm driving at is that my job all boils down to our client and my company getting enough revenue for the year - it all boils down to money. How less humane can you get?

Compare that to saving lives, teaching kids how to read, preaching God's word, and even serving people their food. I'd exchange a human being to a computer any day.

I know there are still a lot of good things about my job. But right now, I just can't see the positive side of what it really boils down to. There must be more to life than shipping out orders and making our client amass money. I'd rather do something else daily - like helping other people and having a significant impact in their lives; something that makes me feel that I've served my purpose on earth, even if I'm not a superhero.

Kissmarks and Amici

So. Vacation started today.

Forgive me for being so detailed as I am usually not like this. ;)

1. Slept in. Didn't exercise with the oldies as Mama has repeatedly asked me to.
2. Watched Andrew Zimmern eat exotic-slash-yucky food. And Anthony Bourdain work his ass off at the restaurant where he used to be the chef.
3. Went to the hospital to bring food and see Lolo.
4. Checked my work email (Oh yes).
5. HoHoL with Sean (Hang out hangout lang). And look! He got a kissmark from Ninang! Teehee! :)






















6. Had dinner with Mabelle, Dotty and JB at Amici di Don Bosco. That is, after going from QC to Manila, getting stuck in traffic at Gil Puyat turned Buendia, finding our way to Pasong Tamo, and then finally arriving at Don Bosco.

When we arrived at Amici, I was secretly wishing that they hadn't changed the feel of the place. But with the new management, I guess it was inevitable. I do miss the old Amici -- the home cooked feel of the food, the canteen style setting, and the fact that its only establishment is in Don Bosco. I love the fact that a place is known by word of mouth and that the people come to the restaurant, not the other way around. It somehow makes every visit all the more special.

But I must admit that this expansion has an upside. They already have a branch at Tomas Morato and are also planning to open branches at Greenhills and Megamall. That means Amici anytime of the day for me! :)

Even with the changed setting, the food was exactly as I remembered it -- great! :) The travel from QC was well worth it. We had pasta Bolognese and Pepperoncino. For pizza, we had Tutta Carne (Meat Lovers). The mozarella sticks were super great! And of course, who would leave without some gelato?


While we're on dessert, I also had a slice of Mango Tango and a slice of Pistachio cake for takeout. :) When I sleep tonight, I'll be dreaming of both slices. :)

It was another great night with high school friends -- another night of great food and even greater company. And dare I say, the start of a great vacation. :)

Fruit Puree

"How do you feel today?"

If someone asked me that question last night, I wouldn't know what to say. Feeling a jumble of emotions at the same time is seldom easy. If only I could create compartments in my heart and segregate the individual feelings, it would make the situation less complex.


Here's a shot at it. And here's to hoping this will help out my confused mind.

Box 1 is for work
- I feel very tired. The 1 month slump has taken its toll. I'm tired of counting down weekdays and feeling sad on Sunday afternoons.
- I feel guilty, but more relieved than anything else.

Box 2 is for Lolo
- I'm worried.

Box 3 is for my 2-week a.k.a. half of November leave
- I don't feel as excited as I'm supposed to. Partly because I'll miss my office friends (Yehes, Click barkada!) and our Ilocos planning sessions every so often. Also because the start of my vacation means I'm closer to the end of it. (I know, right?!?)
- But I do have plans! I feel that I should put them into action. Scrapbooking. Sleep! TV. Books! Lunchies and dinners with friends (Jeth & Mike, ha!) Playing with Sean the whole day. Still attending planning meetings. Basically, just chill.

Box 4 is for YOU. The most confusing box in the stack.
- I feel jealous of her.
- I feel that I'm setting myself up for disappointment again. That I'm now expecting things that won't happen. I don't want to be controlled by this. I want to be more cautious.
- Apart from all that, I still feel hopeful. Kasi puede eh. Puede talaga.
- Lastly, I always feel damn happy when you're around. : ) Or even when I think of you... like now. : )


It's not like these boxes are still intact when they get mixed up inside of you. It's not like fruit salad. It's more like fruit puree (Anyone who got that has the same wave length as me.) And when the puree is inside it all feels like mush. Which, I want to clarify, doesn't feel good.

A normal Friday night, I must say.