Solitude

On this night of solitude

I didn't finish my food

Crappy
poetry, I know. But that was exactly what I was thinking as I stared at
my El Pollo Loco leftovers after dinner tonight. I stared across the
table and found… no one. This is not unusual for me. On nights like
this, I reaffirm that I’m a loner at heart.

Tonight,
I wanted to do some thinking thinking (in Tagalog, muni-muni. Ngek,
corny). I just wanted to think with no interruption. To let my thoughts
flow. To daydream. To observe people. And indulge in food.

I
thought about what would have happened if I spent this night
differently. I thought about what dessert would do the best job in
cheering me up. I thought about our move to Production. I thought about
how things never change. I daydreamed of what would have happened if
things did change. I guessed if the couples passing by the window would
really end up together. And I ate a lot of chicken, salsa, and Spanish
rice in pita wraps -- the works.

I
walked back to the office with a big tummy with no room for dessert and
a full mind with thoughts running around. I went back to the office
thinking that like my times of driving and jogging, tonight's date with
myself is alone time well-spent.

Have Faith

We all have expectations. More often than not, we expect that whatever
we give will equal what we receive. We expect that when we give our all
on something, we will reap grand rewards. We expect people to be
willing to spend the same time and effort that we spend on them.
Anything short of that is a disappointment.



It's disappointing when you expect a friend to act a certain way, but
he/she doesn't. It's disappointing when you love, but you aren't loved
back. It's disappointing when you work hard on something, but you still
fail miserably in the end.



On my cynical days, I think that life is just one disappointment after
another. On my truly cynical days, I think that life is just one BIG
disappointment. But eventually, I learned to just have faith and let it
be.



Have faith in your friends, because even with time, distance and lots
of arguments, they will never fail you. Have faith in love, because you
will always be very rich of it. There are a lot more people who love
you than you could ever imagine. Have faith in your hard work. It's the
most reliable source of success.



I guess what I’m trying to say is, when you don't expect and just have
faith – just let everything be – there will be no disappointments at
all. When you have faith and know that everything will turn out for the
best, you’ll understand that every lost friendship, broken heart, and
failure is in the grand scheme of things. And when you have faith in
God and know that He always has your back, then you’ll believe that
things will happen exactly as He planned.

Red Cups are Here!

I first felt the Christmas spirit this year when I started getting my Starbucks coffee served in red cups. Of course, this comes with the yearly drive to complete the icicle stickers to get that much-awaited Starbucks planner. I got one last year and have been making it my mini-scrapbook since.

 

 

One of the more important events that happened this year is my Ate Cel and Kuya Sonny's wedding. I made a May weekend-long entry in their wedding motif and some pressed rose petals from my bouquet.

 

 

For my birthday this year, I treated my officemates to Gonuts Donuts. I made a little puzzle of doughnuts in my journal in October.

I love traveling and I've done a lot of it this year. My favorite travel entries are our Ilocos trip in August

and my Auckland spread in September.

 

 

One of my favorites in my 2006 journal is my Summer Checklist. Here I listed all the things I needed and wanted to do in the summer. It includes things like "Go to a beach/resort/pool with friendskami," "Go for ice cream (FIC) at SC at least once," "Wear something summery to the office," and "Keep Tempra Forte/Advil at hand for the heat headache."

 

 

 

 

Lastly, of course it wouldn't be a journal without the sentimental and inspired musings. A lot are for God

and some are for other people found here -->

Hindi ko maisip kung wala ka sa buhay ko... -Hale
Ngayon alam ko na. - Chubbs

So care to treat me to a drink at Starbucks? I promise I'll put the planner to good use.

What I've Been Up To Lately...

 

1. Saying good-bye to Arlene during her despedida dinner with HP batchmates at CPK Shangrila.

 

 

2. Getting addicted to PrimeSuspects.

 

 

 

 

3. Tracking a consistently delayed BAT. Getting used to the terms "delayed," "target," and "tasks."

 

 

4. Being Sick in Singapore during Gillette Integration Phase 2.

 

5. Taking mirror projects and accompanying Krizel to buy her Hans breakfast.

 

 

6. PMS-ing and bitching on Sametime.

 

7. Eating the best Indonesian cuisine at Clarke Quay on a Friday night.

 

8. Bonding with my gelays at Wee Nam Kee and Sheraton Singapore.

 

9. Finally watching The Prestige with my sister a few hours after I got back from Singapore. *Photo taken from http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809267303/photo/970409784.

 

10. Celebrating Sean Matthew's 1st month in this world! =) Love you, Sean! =)